Sleeping with a stranger

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By Leptirela

I never quite know how I survive it
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I never quite know how I survive it
knowing ill forever feel torn.
knowing ill forever feel torn.

Stranger

The darkness falls between two hands of time

I never quite know how I survive it

I cant see it but I can feel my heart rate drop

I dream that I dream and I want it to stop.


I pray in the silent moment of darkness and wind

I rewind the time I was warm

I am now cold and my heart cries within

knowing ill forever feel torn.

His look as rough as the stinging rays

rip through my mind

If I prayed for another 100 days

there's still no light to find.


His silence beats me like a punch in the head

his lips are stern and pursed

his eyebrows dance in an angry dust

no way out, I am cursed.

Body still and trembling

whilst his breath is short and hard

his roughness makes my stomach turn

this, I cant discard.


Who is he? I ask myself

and whatever brought me here

knowing I deserve all this

to live in darkness and in fear-

His hand moves up towards my face

the look in his eyes are dark

There is nothing bright about this stranger

Hes just leaving his black mark.


I always knew this would happen

since you left me in the cold

Silent tears in the silent nights

silent truth to be told.

Then the black sun comes shining

waiting for my sign

but I will not give or surrender

I will await for whats mine

TheN the days turn to nights

and those turn to weeks

I wait for the hollow moon to befriend

He listens, he don't speak.

I weep into my little hands

I mumble under covers

I reflect a smile to familiar faces

and they think we are lovers

I try and I try I keep trying

to hold the truth together

lying was my best friends curse

And it will stay here forever,.




Comments

adventofreason profile image

adventofreason 11 months ago

Nice work here . . . great images. Sad, but rings so true.

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manthy Level 4 Commenter 11 months ago

cool - I like it

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ExoticHippieQueen Level 6 Commenter 11 months ago

I can relate.......... nice work!

PenMePretty 11 months ago

Excellent creativity. Beautifully written. Great pics.

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Leptirela Hub Author 11 months ago

Thanks all for great comments :) and for taking time to read my darkness :)

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Eiddwen 11 months ago

Great hub and thanks for sharing.

Take care

Eiddwen

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bbnix Level 5 Commenter 11 months ago

You know it's funny.. this hub has been sitting on my desktop 3 days, only because of the Evanescence video. Amy Lee is, for me, the most incredible artist alive. No one matches my heart and sensibilities like her and her voice. Nothing penetrates my soul like that longing voice of hers.

And then, this morning, prompted by your kind words, I've read your poem, and find myself near to tears, not only for you and your tragically breaking heart, but for mine as well.

I suppose it's not much of a secret, and if you don't mind, I'll continue to treat it so, but after 28 years of marriage, my wife and I find ourselves at odds as much as not, and it's a terrible struggle...for both of us. But, hey, we're working at it. Who knows what the future will bring...

To tell you the truth, I don't know why I felt I needed to confide in you, but only to say, I do get a sense that you're a tender soul, and I want you to know ... that you're not alone... and for me, friends are for life...

Godspeed, my friend...

bb

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epigramman 11 months ago

......always an immense pleasure to receive a visit from you my truly inspired friend - and then to come here and allow myself to be taken away and lose myself in your words and your poetic soul - the beautiful woman that you are and my esteemed colleague and the highly regarded writer that you are .......5:29 am lake erie time Ontario, Canada

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Leptirela Hub Author 11 months ago

bbnix ... not everyone is as...gutly as yourself who would be ready to admit a struggle... I like yourself am never afraid to admit it .. It was hard.

But I will jut tell you one important thing...DO NOT LOSE HOPE!

I pray that better days lie ahead of you and your loved one.. Life is about struggle and how we deal with it what we take away from it.. I think it is cowardly not to work on things when they become difficult.But , there are certain situations one must get themselves out of and that includes betrayal, or any sort of physical or emotional abuse because you must always remember ..to yourself you are number one and no one is worth your pain.. we just simply have to...move on sometimes and find a better day if it dont find us first.

I wish you all the best and I share the passion with you, Ame Lee :))

epigramman THANK YOU FOR SUCH KIND WORDS as always ... I dont know but since you wrote your first comment on my hub you became a true pen-friend..

Much Love, Ela (current dest: Bosnia)

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miss_jkim Level 3 Commenter 11 months ago

You, my dear, do have the ability of penning powerful words with deep emotional messages.

Very well done.

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Leptirela Hub Author 11 months ago

Thank you miss_jkim :)

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bbnix Level 5 Commenter 11 months ago

Heading for Bosnia Ela?

And thank for your kind words and support...you are a gift, my dear friend...

I do believe you and I have great things ahead of us...

I've decided to head for the east coast...leaving my comfort zone here out west...wish me luck...

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Leptirela Hub Author 10 months ago

hahah welcome bbnix

:) lets keep it flowing...there words help loads :)

I am happy that your optimistic :)

that is sadly rare today but I have met many writers on hubs who I truly adore and feel privileged to share some words with :)

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michael ely 10 months ago

Excellent poem Leptirela . Very powerful. Michael.

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Leptirela Hub Author 10 months ago

Thanks Michael your not so bad yourself :)

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writer20 Level 8 Commenter 10 months ago

A lovely but sad poem. Hopefully your heart is alot happier like mine.

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Doug Turner Jr. Level 3 Commenter 10 months ago

Nightmarish, but with a twinge of hope struggling beneath.

JadedLove 10 months ago

TAG you're it. I have found you again and in a perfect moment. Beautiful in pain forgetting nothing. Lovely words painting images of a sorrow destined to reach hope. UP and beautiful.

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Leptirela Hub Author 10 months ago

Thanks JadedLove :) much appreciated

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icciev 7 months ago

I will wait for what's mine, well done leptirela. Voted up

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tlmntim9 Level 4 Commenter 5 months ago

Powerfull and beautiful, sad as life itself

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Leptirela Hub Author 5 months ago

Thank you icciev

and

Thanks tlmntim9 :)

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Astra Nomik Level 6 Commenter 4 months ago

This is so moving and striking in its subject... it is dark and yet there is rays of sunshine somewhere too....I can feel the optimistic energy in your comments too...:)

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Leptirela Hub Author 4 months ago

Ahh Astra Nomik :)

Thank you for reading and observing, your always so good with it...

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Frank Atanacio Level 8 Commenter 4 months ago

Lep.. this was actually pretty good.. voted up and awesome :) Frank

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DREAM ON Level 7 Commenter 4 months ago

You crush my thoughts and turn them to gold.You dig deeper than I have ever known.I try to understand my own struggles in life and I see how others like you clearly fight and never give up.You inspire me to write from the heart.I know you will find what you need to carry you through and I will be the first to wish you the best life has to offer.Thanks for sharing and what wonderful pictures that describe so much.

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Yaduvanshi 4 months ago

Excellent work, It seems it is based on some real life experience leading to such wonderful words bringing out true emotions.

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Leptirela Hub Author 4 months ago

Frank

DREAM ON

Yaduvanshi

Thank you all for such great comments , I welcome criticism too :) ... I wrote this when I wasn't in a mood for anything else and a little argument inspired this hahaha :))

Thank you all

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Jspot 4 months ago

As once I said this like I was someone else, your words are inviting as well as painfully beautiful. Voted up and beautiful , and may light and love fill your heart, Johnny

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